It’s more than ok! Babies are hard work. They are demanding and deprive you of many of the things you used to do so freely. It doesn’t mean we don’t love them. It means we’re only human!
Jack is 5 weeks old. At 3 weeks I thought I was going to suffocate. It was an endless loop of constant feeding,nappy changes,clothes washing and crying. The Mister was back at work after just one week. I was alone with 6 children.
I sat on my garden doorstep and cried. I really let go and just cried. Jack was screaming for yet another feed and I was drowning in questions from the kids,an overflowing laundry basket, the need to cook dinner and feeling incredibly tired. Crying was all I had left. I said things that I didn’t mean and I’m not proud of, but at the time I just wanted to make it all dissappear.
Some days I do feel like I wish I could fast forward time. I want him to sleep through the night. I want to get in the bath whenever I choose,not only when the Mister is home to take over.
I love being his mum! He’s amazing and beautiful. I love cuddling him and watching him snooze. But not all of the time. Sometimes it does feel as though I’m living in groundhog day.
It’s OK to not enjoy every single thing your baby does. It’s OK to admit that it’s hard going. Every single parent on the planet will have felt like this at some point. Don’t pretend it’s OK if it’s not. Shrug off any judgments from others. Unless they live in your shoes they can’t comment.
x N x